The Physics Of My Dreams (Zeroth Draft)

What makes our dreams so unique? I don’t fucking know. But as a theorist I have some guesses:

Dreams are created (in part, at least) by our brains, the best and most subtle particle decelerators in the Universe (not black holes). You might recall—either from memory or from google—the existence of the third, the second, and the first generation of particles, a classification all together called the standard model.

However, you wouldn’t recall—just as you might not recall a dream—the existence of a zeroth generation of particles. Just like the second and third generations of particles, these particles are not easily observable in our modern patch of the Universe. Whereas the second and third generation of particles cannot maintain for long because of their high energy is out of balance with the ambient energetic state (that is synchronized well with the first generation of particles), the zeroth generation is at a much lower energy state, one that the Universe in the future may approximate. However it is not just the for the future to wander in to this lower energy space where first generation particles and the energy soup that surrounds them to decay in to zeroth generation particles. Such particle decay happens in our brains all the time, especially during sleep. Time itself in dreams can seem to be multiplied out in duration, and such is the rich complexity that takes hold when a lower, more “efficient” use of particles is at play and interacting in the energetic Universe and consciousness. In a sense, consciousness dives down into these lower more complexifiable zeroth generation particle configurations to expand the depth and breadth of experience—just as the life force of the Universe has done all along since the big bang.

These zeroth generation particles are at such low energies that they alter the very foundations of planck distance and planck quanta. This is particle diffusion—but they only last as long as the collection of brain energy can remain subtle enough to hold this space as it’s own dream Universe. All sorts of quantum gatherings and intrigue happen here and are drawn here. Quantum tunneling and harmonization with other dreamers creating similar families of zeroth generations of particles are frequenc-ially aware of one another, perhaps more intelligible if it were to be put in to terms of string theory and not quantum theory.

Now as onlookers—many physicists included—often philosophically prematurely presume, the “fundamental” (bias) first-generation particles are foundational and determinative of what they coalesce to create. Not so the case here, in the very least. These lower mass particles emerge as the subtle storm a brain reaches in micro regions, with first generation particles decaying in to these lower state particles. Directly or indirectly related, the Planck constant—though it may seem fixed and holds the very name to convey such—is actually something subject to evolution and devolution. It varies and will vary, based on the success and failures of we—largely composed of first generation matter organisms—who create our present, which sews the seeds of the future we will inhabit or be extincted from.

In our dreams we are literally building prototypes of the future physical capacities of the Universe. These are refuges and inspiralations that we can grow and make more populated so in a future time lifeforms commonly dwell there, and clock time relatively is slowed exponentially.

A zeroth generation of particles? I know it’s probably a new idea for you, so why don’t you sleep on it and see if it takes hold.

Related Posts:

notes 4 today: 2016-12-15 (Particle Decelerators; Framing Infrastructure As The Ontastricture; Exo-DNA; Tripping Yourself)

The Eternal Difference

The uinverse Part 1: Logic as the Metaphysic

The uinverse Past 2: Effects Searching for Causes

The uinverse Part 3: Moving Past the Future

The First Unlaw Of Thermodynamics: Energy As The Unlawful Principal Of The Living Universe



Fixed Shadows, Broken Humans

Shadows that grow
Shadows that decay
Now stuck with us
Are shadows that stay

Night is a time for darkness and for fire on the ground; day is a time for light coming from the fire in the sky. At night fire dances the shadows, and during day the fire that moves across the sky evolves the shadows by the moment. For Earth’s four and a half billion years, shadows would come and shadows would go, until now. Shadows were ephemeral until humans devised artificial light and “fixed” them. Artificial light brings with it artificial shadows, impregnating our reality with stagnant darkness, all the moreso because of our stagnant material objects.

Breaking Edison’s Idea: A Light Bulb Needs To Go Off
These artificial shadows brought on by artificial light scar the night and the day. Artificial light and its artificial shadows disrupt the flow of the balancing night, pulling us and other animals away from the magic of dark and sleep. The natural dark of night is attacked and made to contrast harshly with the bright polluting lights of modern civilization, straining our eyes with a constant unwavering sting, when our widened pupils have a want of darkness and sleep. During the day artificial light pulls us away from the Earthly atmosphere, and in to insulated and stagnant strucures we call “home” and “work”. The sun and sky are marginalized, and human-made lights steadily and stagnantly have us gravitating around them in stagnant and mis-circulated air.

Moving-light Therapy: Lux in Flux. A modest improvement on the besieged psychological life of a modern human stuck indoors is for the lights themselves to be moved around the room and dimmed and brightened subtly throughout the day. This mimicking of the sun across the sky will not provide the full spectrum of light given by the sun, but at the least lux in flux will evolve the shadows in a more psychologically healthful way.

A Dimmer Look At The Progress Of Civilization
With the peaking of artificial light in this 21st century has come the peaking of many other artifices—peak pollution, peak disease, peak war, and peak genocide—all together in a great and terrible wind that is The War Against The World. Life on Earth is at a nadir in this multi-millenial war against the world, culminating in the Sixth Mass Extinction Event, the first of the Mass Extinctions heralded by a single species—humans. All these life-destroying entities are correlated and all seem to be aided by the human method of sedentary and resource exhaustive deployment on the surfaces of the Earth. Artificial light has sped along our technological invasion of ecosystems and geological strata as we now have more time than ever before to devise more severe penetrations of the Earth.

To all this I say: Fiat Tenebrae (Let There Be Dark)

Lunar Appendage
The upcoming solar eclipse—which forced my hand to write this—is seminal in the daytime light and shadow play that is the most variable of any event on Earth for such a wide area. The moon turns the sun in to a flickering fire that casts a novel shadow and a ring of fire.

Beyond the occassional eclipse, the Moon is the false sun, for we only see the one side of the moon because of it’s tidal locking. It only reveals one undisturbed side of itself. It is both a permanent shadow and a permanent light, depending on the phase of the lunar cycle. It will be full shadow on the eclipse, perhaps only the Sun thus is able to reveal to us the Moon’s true nature. The Moon does not evolve with light or dark. It is not a becoming, it is quite fixed (and quite weak, chained to the Earth).

Editional (September 22)
We focus on the light, and energy more generally, as central, but really the history of the universe tells us that the great diffusion of these things is what is necessary for evolving a higher complexity.

Related Aphorisms 

We must be the night, not to defy the sun, but to preserve darkness from the gathering shadows.

When you are looking around for the shadow from the LED lights, and then to your horror you realize you are the shadow.

The difference between darkness and shadows is so profound that light stands in between them.

Run right at Sauron, and watch fire blink.

The light of science creates permanent objects of knowledge, but is blind to the unnatural permanent shadows on the far side of the light.

blinding dark

X is for Xotic (My Thoughts Inexactly)

Your beauty is such that my eyes feel you and my skin sees you.

Sex is the agony of being in two bodies.

Swallow pure difference, and it is you who are digested.

We make history, or we will be deleted from it.

The robots wrapped in human skin will be envied by the human robots who have forsaken their skin.

Do not be so swift to make smoothness and conformity a highest goal. Smooth is a tombstone, yet engraved in it is a time of death.

The supreme trance artist is as a perfect lover, knowing exactly when and how to change intensity and rhythm to heighten the harmonization.

1 body in to 1,000,000 bodies in, the zeroes start to blur and are thus forgotten.

Love is to be the fire for something beyond yourself—if you keep it inside, you will burn.

X is for X10ding, and X-10-CIV is not only 94, and X is four. Choices are boundless, but binds are ever a choice. We only remain in the shadow of the Romans if we remain bent over their traditions.


My Thoughts Inexactly: F is Forcing, otra vez

If you shiver when beauty touches you, you are the one doing the touching.

Chew on your fortune, for that is the real cookie.

So beautiful a thing is loyalty despite the confines in to which it is submerged and conflated with—hierarchy and monogamy.

We may never touch power, but power ever touches us.

If real progress seems far fetched, think nearer.

Fate is what the weak cling to, and it is what the strong create.

The tragic irony of our times is that if we are to survive we will do it despite our parents, not because of them (as should be).

Let your fire rage, and if bridges be burned know that they were contrived in falsity and their endurance was a puppet string that you may now be liberated from.

Insincerity for the purpose of entertainment and jest is a higher form of sincerity.

To see the light at the end of this tunnel we have dug ourselves in to, we will have to be far seeing and have the will to turn around.

We must be the night, not to defy the sun, but to preserve darkness from the gathering shadows.

Identity is a previous investment trap.

Grassroots can only make change so deep, especially when there are forces that keep mowing them down. Other deeper rooting methods are needed.

Oppression existing is the longest term predictor of extinction.

Death frees us from the final terrifying moments of life so that we do not have to bear them in memory. Terrifying moments that don’t kill us are torturous if death is prevented or delayed.

To be willing to die for something gives you a huge advantage over your opponents. To be willing to live for that something seals the deal.

They are not the be all and end all, but they might be our end all.

I want unconditional freedom, and that makes me a target. However, because of that very freedom, I am a moving target.

When humans break they break other humans. We are anything but an individualist species.

God is love misspelled, and religion is love misunderstood.

Go Foucault Yourself

A fish out of the water is today’s dinner, and a human off the land is tomorrow’s breakfast. When dawn is eclipsing the horizon, will you be there to greet it?

It is true that we can feel one another’s pain. But it is even truer that pain fades away if we feel one another.

When in doubt and all seems equivalent, privilege the new arbitrary over the old arbitrary.

Don’t focus on what it means, focus on what it does.

With the military industrial complex, we’ve all become prisoners of war; and with the prison industrial complex, soon we will all become prisoners.

To belittle others one must belittle oneself.

Capitalism depends upon war; whether it be a world war or a war on the world, if there be such a difference for it is now blurry, as with our vision.

Teleology is the ideology of necessity.

Don’t fear death, fear not being alive.

360 degrees crooked appears straight to the weak minded.

If the slow and systematic enervation of the planet burns a rage inside of you, then you are a comrade of mine.

The world has such great problems, especially when we remove ourselves from being part of it.

When plurality is singularity, contradictions will be in contradiction.

Give all your energy to revolution, and you will receive it back many fold. The Universe yearns for a new way for life, and has an unimaginable abundance ready to freely give out.

One does not even need to eat magic mushrooms, to be fed the magic of mushroom. There are far more immediate connections than digestion.


My Thoughts Inexactly: F is for

For some, it is two days before Christmas; for others, it is two days after the Solstice; for me, it is today. Each day is its own holiday, better when not planned for or longed after. Join me, for a day is singular and so should our presence be!

Saving the Earth is saving yourself spelled differently.

Lovemaking with others is the most profound way to connect to Earth.

It is telling that words are the weapon of so many.

The only way to have the enduring revolution we all need as humans, is if the four-letter word hidden within is not ever forgotten.

If the choice between allying with a person or with the Universe is not the same choice, then it cannot be love.

I love to be contrary to culture, because love has become so contrary to the values of these cultures. A culture in which love is marginalized cannot endure.

Their mouths say they are our elders but their actions say they are our enemies.

If only we were serious about our play time, and playful about our serious time.

They occupy us, if we occupy their ceremonies, whether in protest or support.

I thought I was tortured by your presence, but now only in your absence do I know this was not true.

We want revolution, not because we want violence, but because we want an end to violence!

We should all have an inflated sense of self—it’s called Earth.

Don’t hold something twice (a proverb meaning that so much is already taken care of and being supported by larger forces that it is not just useless but also potentially harmful to intervene).

When kings realize they are pawns in someone else’s game…

The Universal life force stretches consciousness deeper as it stretches deeper into space. We are left timeless, and need no infinity pre-existing; we can become the infinity.

The first shots of a war long brewing will only ever be known to the perpetrators, not the victims.

We bipolar people can change the world, but more often than not we will change it back.

All that science has known correctly and known incorrectly in stored mediated form is in toto far less than was immediately known before science, and civilization, ever existed.

The ignorant will die,
without knowing why.

Paganism isn’t a different world. Its entering the world by removing that which would defer it.

Get in to the minds of others, by letting in the minds of others. Getting in to the minds of others, they get in to the minds of others.

When your low point is behind you, you’re going in the correct direction. If you’re going in the incorrect direction, you won’t know that you don’t know where you are.

The Romeo and Juliet story of polyamory will not be one of families warring but of families joining.

notes 4 today: 2016-12-20 (Winter Solstice Energy; Hyper-theses Valid Until Proven Otherwise; Dear oh Deer, Cities And Bureaucracies Will Kill Us All; Ostracization Of Ostracization)

title: Winter Solstice Energy

“Can’t sleep can’t think can’t stop getting shivers. This solstice shit is powerful; this love is even moreso.”

— A facebook status that I altered withholding from posting (to not reveal a telling hint to the one by whom I am smitten)

This particular hibernal solstice is not like the particular estival solstice 6 months before, not just because one is hibernal and one estival, but because the one before had a full moon in the same day and this one is having a full moon a week before. Yet, for whatever reason, and for only the second solstice in my life, I am on a multi-day extremely low sleep pattern. What’s interesting though is that during this hibernal solstice, if I am remembering correctly, the sun is the closest to the Earth when when it is lowest in the sky for the Northern hemisphere. I wonder if this is a balance or a point of greatest contradiction for the lifeforms enduring these energy shifts. Today, the day before the solstice, I had a heightened spiritual conversation as I drove on wide open New York Thruway and then a Westering Interstate (84?) to get raw milk. Among the discussions that felt like a communing with the trees, mountains and especially the sun, was a whole lot of powerful aphorisms. There was one focused on mushrooms that I will share here:

“One doesn’t need to eat mushrooms, to be fed mushrooms”

I’ve never partaken in psychadelics for shamanic connections, but I certainly felt the aliveness today. It is the second solstice in a row where this has happened. Moments like these are unspeakably reaffirming; I cried in commiseration with the friendly reassuring forces, injustices happening, and of vows to fight for life. Yet there will now be a dread in me that I will not only be losing sleepiness, but losing sleep to (playing on one of my favorite aphorisms).

This note, and everything below, will be on 12 hours of sleep over the last 6 days…

One might be born into a religion, or later choose to join a religion. But it is the Earthly energies that choose to breathe a new life at conception.

title: Hyper-theses Valid Until Proven Otherwise
The scientific process is all together backwards in its approach to the fecundity of the Universe. Scientists and aficionados like this about science—its ability to weed out all but the logically assimilated factors in the Universe that are repeatable rather than unique and spontaneous—but any therapist that has an interdisciplinary acumen could see how grossly invalidating science is to not just a great many theories—”hypotheses”—but also the very real people behind them that took mental energies aside to generate them.

In the spirit of pronoia, and the notion that what exists is its own justification, I wanted to formalize the direct inversion (one of inclusion) to the scientific method of exclusion. Essentially it’s that something is valid until it is proven invalid by some method. Why do thoughts occur to people (and dreams, and dream worlds), where do they come from? The experience of them is very real, which means to me they are as real as other things that are experienced, whether or not they are “eternally” real or “ephemerally” real. The nomadic “ephemeral” real might be the most dynamic and will always be overlooked by science, for it is a law breaker and science stays strictly to the confines of legality.

The emotions, the beauty, the touching—its all very real and all generally foreign to science. Again, ideas generated in your imagination or intuition gotten from your body should be thought of as real and true until they are disproven.

Perhaps in many decades science will turn it’s eye to “know” what has already been long before known, without need of costly and alienating experiments.

Lastly, I wanted to point out a correlation (a causation?) between the development of science and the development of problems in the world, specifically the loss of biomass and biodiversity. When all the narratives of progress are discarded for the propaganda they are, we can see with the much better criterion of life existing and to what extent, that there has been indeed great loss rather than progress. Should we blame science per se? Certainly not as the cause, but perhaps a co-factor. Science knowledge accumulation informs chemists when they develop anti-biological compounds.

re is a scientific correlation between the development of science and the development of problems in the world. The scientific method is anti-thetical to the thesis that something is valid until it is proven unvalid, as, not the opposite direction which is that of science.

title: Dear oh Deer, Cities And Bureaucracies Will Kill Us All

First off, let the deer’s death be in venison, not in vain. Don’t know how they are planning on dealing with the deer’s body, and all the less celebritized deers that die in less infamous circumstances. Industrial chickens practically die from the stress (sometimes hours away from death when they are slaughtered) and are filled with some unfavorable hormones, so that at least is not a reason to avoid eating this deer.

So this may seem like a sad and cute story, but I think it is quite revealing. Humans are temporally quite far from deer evolutionarily (by our own standards, at least), but being of the mammalian family and having most of our needs be similar does suggest that there are comparisons to be drawn. Our systems for decision making (i.e. bureaucracies) are not adequate to biological life, which includes ourselves lest we forget. Though we do not seldom die from bureaucracies, we all indeed do atrophy a bit, weathered down; one additional stressor in the cumulative paralysis of stressors.

title: Ostracization Of Ostracization

Ostracization used to essentially be a death sentence to a person, but this is no longer the case, and on the surface that sounds good because that means no one will have to suffer that fate. However, to draw it level with our time in two dimensions—

1) We have the specter of imprisonment, capital punishment, and other variations that can amount to a death sentence, literally or in labor ostracization (prison record).

2) Ostracization wasn’t something that had to be used all the time (it could act as a deterrent most of the time), and perhaps it can be guessed at that in more recent ancient history banishment for a set time used to happen (1 year?), maybe depending on the offense a person wouldn’t be permenantly ostracized. So it was effectively their judicial system, and certainly I’m guessing most of the tribes that used this had good and valid reasons—for they are giving up one of their own that has already been a love and food investment when they were younger at least, and now won’t be in the society in that capacity. So that really elevates what the severity had to be to get them kicked out. Or perhaps they were a freeloader type that somehow evolved in to that context.

Now what happens in modern western liberal “democracies” is that people who are ostracized because of something the group finds off-putting are then afforded a huge range of other groups that are composed of other ostracized groups to just form a new critical mass for a second community. Before actual ostracization happens, or in tandem with hints of its existence, there is sometimes “self-ostracization” where people might be inclined to leave a social group and join another, sensing they didn’t fit in but new they would elsewhere.

So the problem with this is that the corrective abilities that are evolved with balance in primates are disbanded without anything else to replace them. The long term consequences of this are huge and I think we are seeing it now if we look with any degree of realism at our fellow humans. So yes, specific individuals are empowered in the near term by this process, but it is costly environmentally and disempowers everybody, including the humans as resources (emotional capacities, bodily functionality, as well as soil and other ground resources). OoO wreaks of being deeply reinforcing as by feedback loops with globalization, both eroding localism in their own unique ways.

There has been a denudering of the ability to punish bad behavior, and so these behaviors proliferate in this vacuum.